I feel either speeded up or slowed down and agitated. My mind is full of thoughts I cannot articulate to anyone and I feel as I am swimming through treacle. I want to pace but remain seated here and I am endlessly checking blogs I like reading and a forum I belong to. When not sat in front of the computer I am cooking, cleaning or ironing. I can’t watch the TV it bores me, I can’t read I can’t concentrate long or hard enough.
I keep getting anxiety attacks and I know I am making them worse with my coffee intake. Anxiety is a dreadful thing, it makes me shake and unable to think properly. I don’t know why I am anxious – everything was OK yesterday.
I went to the supermarket this morning and I know people could see my thoughts and were talking about me. The voices tell me I am stupid and lazy and fat.
I have to calm down.
Posted by p3bbles 